Monthly Archives: December 2015

2015 in review

The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2015 annual report for this blog. Here’s an excerpt: A San Francisco cable car holds 60 people. This blog was viewed about 2,700 times in 2015. If it were a cable car, it … Continue reading

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These Are Not The Thoughts You Are Looking For 

   In Star Wars, there’s a classic scene where the storm troopers are Jedi mind tricked into believing that these were not the droids they were looking for, allowing for the safe passage of the heroic characters. The phrase “these … Continue reading

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Have You Ever? 

   I’ve never felt truly engaged in my life. Always like someone on the sidelines or through the looking glass looking in. I think that comes from the disassociating that I do to cope with the pain and uncomfortable feelings … Continue reading

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Goodbye 2015 

   The end of another year draws closer and once again I’m feeling reflective about where I’m at in my journey. It’s never an easy experience as I always have high expectations that I will be much further along than … Continue reading

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Wow. I Put Up A Tree! 

   Wow. I put a Christmas tree up this year. Huge step for me as I haven’t put one up for years. You see, I hate the holiday. Literally, the moment I start to see that damn fat red-suited bastard … Continue reading

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Please Let This Work

   Today I had an assessment with a psychologist at my local hospital to explore the possibility of being seen long-term under her care to address my ongoing mental health issues. The tough buried shit that has never been resolved … Continue reading

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