Could THIS be what Happy Feels Like?!

Ok. I’ve got to admit that I have this INCREDIBLE feeling that I’m not used to. In fact, I’m not even a 100% sure that I have ever felt it. It’s this warm, positive, and thrilling sensation coursing through me. It starts in the same place as all my feelings – right in the tummy. But instead of feeling sad, anxious, scared, sad, or worried I think I feel happy.

Is this what happiness feels like? If it is, I want more. I feel energized and like I am this incredible force. At work I feel like I am an amazon! I’m inspired again about my work and so excited at how my career is developing, I have a mental illness, but I FREAKING rock at my work!! I can be everything I want to be!

At home I have this absolutely amazing daughter. She is becoming my best friend and never I have felt the impact I have on her like I do now. She is this awesome girl who is compassionate and loving, kind and generous, and incredible in so many ways. We fight like women do – with passion and fury but we ALWAYS make up. It’s only now that I truly appreciate the gift of a daughter.

And my husband. Omg I love that man. He walked into my life and he absolutely owns my heart. How I got so lucky to find a man of such strength and character is truly amazing. It was karma. I am so in love withy husband and I can’t believe how that love deepens every day. It truly does. I never believed in Prince Charming until I met Mark. He is the most beautiful person I know.

You know, we always focus on the negatives of having BPD, but I found a positive. I feel happiness, love and joy as intensely as I feel other emotions! I can experience the highs as well as the lows – and as much as I struggle through the lows – I’m going to enjoy the highs!! Life is good and I’m going to enjoy it with everything I have!!

Thank you everyone for the kindness, love and support you have given me, stay strong through the struggles – and when the joyful times come celebrate!

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About wendyenberg

Living the best life I can with BPD, Major Depressive Disorder, Anxiety and PTSD. Mental illness won't stop me from achieving my dreams - it will inspire me to keep fighting harder.
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One Response to Could THIS be what Happy Feels Like?!

  1. Janet Noakes says:

    Yay!
    You continue to inspire…

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